my next chapter

yup u guessed it..COLLEGE!..lol..so..where do i start...lets c...its my third week here in inti college penang...curently doing my alevels...so far its been good..ignoring the fact that i felt so lost living in a completely new place on my own..with the help from Above i guess im blessed having met some really nice people who offered a lot of help n even support..this whole experience feels exactly the same like whn i first went for ns..talk about deja vu huh..but of course minus the baju loreng n spike boots la..haha..experiencing feelings of anxiety n nervousness but at the same time being completely excited n hoping for the best of things 2 happen are all flooding my emotions..but somehow something deep within me is saying ' it'll all get better in time'..homework has slowly but surely started piling..n i have 2 work on getting my rusted brain bck in shape after more thn 5 months of hibernating..till my nxt thought of umm what they call blogging..haha..c ya n tc ;D

ooohlala :D

i guess the title just sums it all up.enjoy! ;)

Monroe Jackson Rathbone V

Benjamin Thomas Barnes

Jared Joseph Leto

Paul William Walker IV

John Christopher Depp II

some quotes that i relate to

30 Seconds To Mars - Bad Romance (Lady Gaga) - Live Lounge

what cnt they do :D

Kara DioGuardi singing happiness

as far as i noe i thought she was just a songwriter that contributed a lot 2 most of the famous songs u hear on the radio these days...bt guess wat she sings as well...n she act is really good..suprisingly..u should also check out her singing had it all which is nw on katharine mcphee's new album

mcphee-ver :)

some songs frm her new album - unbroken..i tink its pretty gud..enjoy

Say Goodbye

If I seem distant
Baby I am
Words are like scissors in your hands
And there’s no script to follow
So I just close my eyes
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye..

I feel just like an actress
Up on the stage
I can’t believe
What I’m hearing myself say
And the porch light is my spotlight
So I play along with this life
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye..

Did you ever love me?
Does it even matter?
Did you even notice the whole world shatter?
I just want to hold you and tell you that I’m sorry
But I just keep it all inside
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye..

My heart feels like a circus
It’s too much to take in
It’s hard to loose a love
But you were my best friend

So I walk this highwire
Alone….tonight
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye..

That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye..


How

They say
Get up out of that bed turn the lights on
Gotta try to forget where it went wrong
Dont you beat yourself up asking questions
Loves gonna come your way again, oh

They say
Step outside of your door let the light in
You never really escape when you hide in
All I want is to be set free
From this pain that is haunting me

Can you tell me how?
When I am broken down and all hope is over
Can you tell me how?
Too many pieces of my heart to put back together
If I could Id take hold of myself
Pull me out of this living hell
Can you tell me how?
Can you tell me how?

They say
If you open your heart to the healing
Time will take all those scars youve been wearing
Please dont tell me how
I should be feeling
Im not sure I even want to try, oh

They say
You just gotta let go and move on
Youre only hurting yourself when you hold on
All I want is to lose this pain
Every drop of it washed away, yeah

Can you tell me how?
When I am looking down and all hope is over
Can you tell me how?
Ten million pieces of my heart to put back together
If I could Id take hold of myself
Pull me out of this living hell
Can you tell me how?
Can you tell me how?

How do I leave this love behind, how?
Can you tell me how?

reminiscing...

just thought how certain dates of the year just brings u back 2 a place n time u wished were just a scene from a really bad dream...thn realising pain is just part of life...loosing ppl u love is something that u will be forced to face..n before it happens u tell urself that ur strong enough 2 go through it until it act happens...n whn it does ur face is just left facing the floor eyes red...its that point u realize how most ppl wear masks everyday 2 cover up those scars n pretending life is all a jolly ride..pfffttt..n thn u think if its act possible 2 get something gud or helpful out of the xperience..n if u just sift out all the negative effects yes thr is...it forces u 2 appreciate the ppl u have while they're still there with u!



quoting stephen king "God is cruel. Sometimes he makes you live. "